So I need a plan for tonight. Normally if I am trying not to drink, I will take benadryl, like 3, with a glass of wine, which knocks me completely out. It seems better than staying up all night swilling wine, and waking up feeling like death, with two small kids to parent all day. I know doing this isn't ideal, but it feels like a step away from alcoholism. Am I fooling myself? Is this just another escape from reality? Or a reasonable first step?