Originally Posted by
Mummyto2 
With me it was always the shame and guilt that made me pick up again, I felt guilty I would have a drink and the following morning I was right back there, sneaky disease
Exactly, watch out for unreasonable shame and guilt over things in the past that we cannot change, that's a red flag. Especially things we might have done, but don't even know about.
I did some really stupid things when I was a drunk, and I still get a little zing if I think too hard on them, but I don't want to zing myself over something that I can't change anyways, so I don't spend energy on it anymore. But it took a couple years to really move on.