It all just feels like such an isolating emotion to have. I feel guilty for anything positive coming my way, feel like a fraud and that I shouldn't be moving on sometimes. However with all these feelings it doesn't tempt me back as I know that I probably wouldn't come back from another binge or at least that's how it feels. Popping anti depressants and the like are not cures and the only peace of mind I get is knowing that I can sleep later and escape a while.