He's going to mine tomorrow to collect more of his things while I'm away. I'm feeling worse and worse each day. I didn't realise how heartbroken I was but now it's very raw and it hurts. I sneak to the loo for a cry by myself. The girls aren't really concerned we've had spats before but this is different. I don't know what to do with these awful feelings. Sorry for the moan bit I literally have no one to talk to.