God this is tough. I hate having to pretend I'm okay if I'm not. The scared little girl in me wants to say sorry please come back I need you. Not doing that is so hard right now....a little like trying not to take the first drink. Now I'm questioning myself. Maybe I overreacted. Maybe it was nothing. I just can't bear the idea that the man who so kindly stayed by my side through the last 3 months has been out "there" in the seedy world of online group whatever. And no sign of any effort to say sorry even. This is too hard.......xxx