I will try Dee. I know these feelings I have now aren't doing me much good. It's praying on all of the personality traits I hate about myself. Ego, jealousy, anger, fear...... bit of work required I think......
But on the positive side I feel like I'm still "doing" recovery. Yes it's a little crisis management right now but I did dig into my toolkit and it helped. I'm so very grateful to have my sober days and my girls and you guys. I can only shudder to think about what would have happened 96 days ago......doesn't bear thinking about.
Love you guys xxx