Weakness is a strength. Think about that- carefully. For most of my adult life I have struggled with the big, black dog and drinking. 4th gen. to do so. I tried every thing BUT AA. Why? Because I had shown strength in my work, qualies..getting stuff. So going to AA meant I was weak. So to accept this- means I was too weak to stop- so I had to prove I could stop by will power because I was different. I am garden variety. I definitely reached the very, very bottom. which involved burns and death- mine.
What I did not have is the sober awareness you now have. Or even knowing places like SR existed or that going to AA was a strength- because like any successful person knows- to identify and accept a weakness means we can change that.