Originally Posted by
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The one thing I've come to grips with is even if I drink 100 times and 99 of them are fine...it's that one where I end up smoking, treating people like crap and increase my anxiety and OCD 10 fold for 2-3 weeks. I came to a realization, with the help of my therapist, that eventually (even with all the silly rules I'd make for myself BEFORE I was drunk) the other shoe will drop. After about 20 times I had to either accept those times of doing things that were totally opposite of who I am would continue to happen or stop drinking. I decided it was time to stop drinking. I also learned through this forum that labels don't mean anything. Alcoholic or not...a problem is a problem, and only you know deep down if it's a problem. If you are posting in here...maybe it's your time as well. Just a thought.
This is great, that's exactly how I feel and I also have OCD/anxiety. Most of the time I can probably get a little drunk and be fine, but I just never know when I'm going to go too far and hurt someone or myself, get a dui, or like you said... mess with my mental health.
Is my drinking bad enough to quit? I don't know. But it's definitely not good enough to keep doing. I get nothing positive from it.