I think you're worth saving Sim
I started simply - no booze in the house, no buying booze, no ebing around booze.
That was me for the first 30 days.
I had to leave all the crises and whatnot to others, cos I had the fight of my life on my hands.
Like jo says thats not selfish - I saw it as self preservation.
I'm no good to anyone drunk or dead.
when I was ready...then I faced my problems - and I leant on whatever support I had to help me face problems sober and develop new healthy positive coping skills.
you can do this, sim
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