Thank you all very much for taking the time to read and say something positive to me. I will do the impossible if i have to in order to stay sober. I guess i have been denying there was a problem and something like this had to happen so i can finally admit there is in fact a problem.
Everytime i feel like drinking i will remember the distress i feel today and i know i will succeed. I wish everyone success with recovering. I finally learned that alcohol is a devil and it aint worth even 1 second of my time...