Sounds chillingly familiar. I excluded myself from all my local casinos so I couldn't go there drunk. But eventually a new one opened up and I went there loaded. The only solution for me was in the end to realise that the alcohol was the problem. These things have never happened to the sober version of me. Before or since I quit drinking. I can't promise YOU won't do these things that cause all this distress when you remember them if you stop drinking. It's very likely that you will though. You have to want to stop drinking more than you want to carry on though.
Good luck