Forty nines days is awesome.
Originally Posted by
Wantingit 
The weekends I am stuck here the loneliness and missing my wife is overwhelming, even calling my sponsor and going to meetings.
Anyone else deal with this as a serious character defect/trigger to feel like drinking?
I don't doubt you miss your wife and are lonely. But drugs and alcohol aren't companions, so loneliness is a poor reason to drink.
You've been struggling with addiction for
years. Don't lose the sober time you've acquired. You may never get it back.