Timetogetbackon your story is similar to mine. I'm a year older but drinking habits the same since 16. I've lost a lot but still got kids and wife with me....just.
I'm new here too, it took me a while to get to the stage where I could give up and so 'day 1' was really a long way in for me! I don't count days like some do but find it useful to check in morning and night to remind myself of my reality rather than get carried away thinking my situation has changed