Welcome to SR, Roses! I'll second what Dee said, that your new sober life will be even better than your drinking life. Just give it some time and effort.
I'm almost six months sober. I went to a friend's 40th birthday party tonight. He's a non-drinker (always has been). But I knew there would be people there drinking. Nobody was out of line or drunk like I would have been. I had a great time chatting with friends and catching up. Then, we came home and watched a late night movie with our older children.
It sure beats my old life of drinking to blackout, acting like a fool, not remembering anything the next day, and feeling like death. I rather enjoy my new, calm, "boring" life.
Please stick around and learn about recovery and get a plan together. I guarantee you you'll never regret waking up sober.