Hello and welcome.
I'm Paul and I'm an alcoholic .
It took me years to say that. I'm powerless over alcohol.
I tried. Until it finally beat me and tried to kill me. Drinking, at the end, around the clock because I knew what awaited me- the crippling anxiety. Guilt and remorse over how I could let this happen again.
I drank like that for ten years. Finally, I found AA. There were people there like me. I didn't know that. We all were there to stop our common affliction with drink. We had little else in common, but that didn't matter.
It took me awhile, but I've now gone six and a half years without a drink.
Powerlessness. It's hard to admit. Please don't wait till you hit rock bottom and the lows I did.
I also suffer from social anxiety. Still do. But I was ready to go to any length to get sober.
I had to admit I was powerless. Get rid of my false pride and fear and go to a meeting.
Believe me, it wasn't easy, but what worth it in life is? Especially saving your own life.
You can do it. I know you can. Try.
I wish you the best.