Welcome back icoi87. Glad to hear you are going to give SR another shot and also going back to meetings. Admitting/accepting/proclaiming our addiction is a very hard step, whether you do AA or any other program/plan. I personally found that it was absolutely necessary though.
I am also an anxiety sufferer, and drinking was my "coping" mechanism, but eventually it not only failed, but it made the anxiety worse. There are solutions that work far better for anxiety though....it's a very common and very treatable condition, But the drinking has to stop first. I hope we can help you get to that point.