Reaching out for help
Hey all, I've been reading and posting sporadically here for a few months, I'm not doing so well right now. I've been sober off and on over the last year...a month here and a month there. I was sober for over 3 months from Feb-June. Started up again mid June, and I'd stop for a week or a few days, and then start again. I really miss my sobriety. It was the best 3 months of my life, even though it was hard. I really want to quit for good. I went to AA some but didn't give it a fair chance. I am going to a meeting tomorrow and I'm going to get a sponsor asap. It's just hard for me to ask for help, and I have sometimes crippling social anxiety. I just can't get past step one. I don't understand why. I can say it, but I can't really accept it.
Anyway, thanks for reading. Any encouragement much appreciated.