Hi Jeff,
I'm sorry you are having a rough day. I definitely reflect back on some of the choices I made throughout my life, and sometimes I cringe at the memories. However, each decision brought me to who I am today.
You have made great decisions the past two years. Try to think of some of the positives from the past two years, and focus on those. Try to get yourself to do something active to help you get out of your head.
Sending lots of love your way.
❤️Delilah