I'm just putting this out there from my own, unhealthy behaviors. Very similar to you, I handled all the household chores, bills, kids etc. BUT :
I kept planning trips with my AH & the kids because I was too scared to travel alone and I didn't have confidence that I was fun enough. For me, it wasn't until I moved outside of my comfort zone that I started to grow as a person.
Plenty of tears from me along the way when I'd be in a strange place without him. I still battle anxiety about it but it doesn't keep me home anymore (or inviting him along).