Js welcome, glad you found us. There are very few active alcoholics that admit to their disease and do something about it.
But does one really need the title?
Good for you for not leaving the children alone with a drunk. That is an accident waiting to happen. If you can see if the Alanon meetings have day care or confide in a close friend or relative to watch your kids. It's really nice to meet people who are just like you.
Until then keep reading all over this forum, it's a terrible disease that steals our loved ones and won't give them back. Education is power, the more you know where your future is going you can plan. I waited 34 for my addict to "get it" . It never happened for me, so 2 1/2 years ago I divorced him. Truly was the best decision I have ever made for me. Stick around, keep posting and asking questions, we are all here for you..