Thank you all very much, this is the first time I've ever "spoken" about this and I never imagined I would get support back. Thank you.
Do any of you have any advice on getting him to stop drinking without leaving him? Should I bring up a treatment program? That seems like a "fight starter" and that's not what I want. I'm so unsure of what to do, because NO I don't want the next 50 years of my life to look this way. I just don't know what my next step here is...