Hi Sobersurf and welcome to SR!
Definitely read around. There are a lot of great reading and resources here.
I think you will find overwhelmingly the vote will be for quitting.
It takes some of us a few tries to get to the full commitment. But if we can, so you can too.
I greatly curtailed myself into near death so many times.
I could only start to fix up the wreckage of my life, mind, soul and relationships when I quit for good.
I hope you choose sobriety. It does get better with time, if we choose life over alcohol.