Dim I feel for you I really do. The one thing I could never master was putting the drink back down once I'd started again. It's like I had to fully wring out the binge until I could not stand it any more. Problem then was I was in the pit of horrendous withdrawal which got worse each time. It was so dangerous and I shudder at the thought of how much risk I was in.
If you act now you can avoid this my friend. You know the drill. Dig deep, down a pint of water and go to bed. There's a massive difference between a slip up and a full on relapse. I truly hope you can put it down xxx