Pour away anything else you have Dim. 9 months is amazing. This is a little bump in the road, don't let it become anything more than that. I know that feeling ...where's no darkness and where you can be who you want to be. It's a mirage Dim. It isn't real. It lures you in and before you know it you're in a place of constant darkness with no idea who you are. Throw the booze away and give yourself the best chance of beating this thing for good.