Originally Posted by
Chilledice 
And I am scared to take my anxiety meds because if they DON'T work then I will feel REALLY hopeless and out of options. (My religious fear of meds has gone)
What if I take them and they DON'T work what then? Il be screwed.
You're 'awfulizing' and it's counterproductive. Try not to project into the future. Live in the moment.