Hey Chilledice. I truly believe that you will come to a point in time where you can live with what you have done in the past. Feeling overwhelmed is a phase. It will not last. My own emotions are all over the place at the moment. I have not even begun to process all the awful things I have done over the last 30 years. I don't think I'm strong enough at the moment.
Hang on in there chuck... it will get better.