Thanks for reading and replying. Sorry to hear what you've had to go through. It's hell on earth isn't it? I'm grateful that I've managed to break most of my codie ways. When I look back over the years to the enabling I did, the excuses I made, the wasted money
so sad.
This time last year I would have searching everywhere for him, begging him to see sense, calling everyone. I could care less about even thinking that way now. You get so sick and tired of being sick and tired yourself that your feelings just die.
You are so right about the way of thinking. He doesn't want to really get clean I know that deep down I do. It's sinking in more and more everyday. The hardest part is the reality that I will be a single mum to a newborn baby and I'm scared and angry about that. Resentful that he gets to run away and get high and abandon us and his responsibility. It's hard reality to face.