Originally Posted by
ScottFromWI 
Perhaps instead of stepping back you could step up and show him how serious you are this time?
I love this message. Exactly this.
Depression and alcoholism feed each other, and it can be a hard cycle to escape. He's with you because he LOVES YOU, believes in you, and he is OK with seeing you make mistakes as long as you keep trying.
If you feel like you don't deserve someone, don't give up -- become the kind of person that DOES deserve them! What would it take to become the kind of person you think your boyfriend deserves to be with? What actions can you take to get there?