Originally Posted by
zenchaser 
Only I can keep me sober. I have to learn to stay quit despite my AV's desire to drink. Nobodies coming to save me, I have to save myself.
Good to see you too, zenchaser. I don't want to derail the OP's thread, but the above is your AV. Notice the verb tense that it used -- "have to" suggests that the drinking is not really over yet, and that more drinking might still be in the cards. Any thinking or feeling that supports, or even suggests, your possible future use of alcohol...