You're a scientist. Excellent, that wil help.
Do some research on the biochemistry of alcohol addiction. Then do some more on how the entertainment, beverage, advertising and now the recovery industries all profit enormously off the misery of problem drinkers, all the while telling them that the problem isn't the highly addictive toxic chemical they're selling, it's that they are sad useless people who have no willpower.
I am nobody's pawn and that I became one over time motivates me to stay sober more than anything except this forum.
Seventeen months ago I joined this forum. Yesterday I had eighteen months sober. No coincidence!
I'm so glad you've joined us!