[QUOTE=Ariesagain;6520982]You say you've been an alcoholic for ten years...was this boyfriend around that long? Is he physically holding you down and forcing you to drink?
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He actually broke up with me today because of my actions. But no, he and I were together for 15 months. He does not hold me down and force me to drink. He enables, encourages, and influences for us to drink together. I do know that I made the final decision to drink that night. I'd just like to understand how he can think that I was the only willing participant in jeopardizing our relationship when we both know the consequences. You start to forget that he said he would break up with you if it ever happens again when he is the one telling you we should get pint of crown. He thinks he can justify is addiction because I cannot justify mine when the impact of my decision to drink overruled his.
-Throwin myself a pity party.