Originally Posted by
RavenWings 
Thanks Brenda.
I feel I need to be around people yes, and want to find a group that is positive and inspiring. I am very wary of 'trauma porn' and just worry that AA may be a perpetual excuse to indulge in the crap of it all. I mean, just having to admit powerlessness is already against my 'religion'. I do actually believe in myself, believe it or not
Omg yes. That was another big turn off for me. I want to spit when I have to sit there and listen to "I wanted to drink so bad today". It is meeting to meeting though. The emphasis needs to be on LIVING IN THE SOLUTION. I need to seek out those folks that inspire me to live that way.
The powerlessness thing is hard.. we are still powerful in so many other ways, there is just this one thing we lack power over. The reason it's so important to admit that, is because as long as we still tell ourselves we can conquer this, we will always try to drink again, and fall back in to the same old same old. I have no power over alcohol. I can't drink. I can't change the way alcohol affects me. I have power over everything else AS LONG AS I accept that I can't drink.