I always found that re-reading my old threads was a great way of reminding me why staying sober did matter.
Another good thing is to reach out - the monsters die in the light - so I'm really glad to you reached out.
I think a lot of us,sometimes get a feeling of 'is this all there is?'
It can be deflating to put in effort and time and end up not feeling too much different from when we were drinking.
It can also be daunting to face things like 4th of July weekends and feeling left out.
Our inner addict will use all those things, and will try its best to persuade us that drinking is the answer.
It's not.
Please don't think that this is the best it gets - it gets better.
The more you build a sober life you love the better it gets.
This weekend could be a great opportunity for more 'foundation work'
D