Yes, it takes a lot of repeated action before it starts to feel "normal" to react this way.
Anger can be good - it can be fuel to carry you during discomfort. It can motivate you to next steps. Or, like the infamous Maya Angelou reminds us, "bitterness is like cancer, it eats upon the host..... but anger is like fire, it burns everything clean." USE the energy of your anger is some way that benefits you.
Think of it this way - if it took 100,000 repeated actions for that to become your old normal, you'll need that plus more to reverse the habit. Hang in there Smarie, it can be so easy to think we're not getting "anywhere" when we aren't feeling Big Responses. This is another way I had to examine my expectations of Self - like, was it REASONABLE to expect myself to feel great after a couple of simple interactions?
