How to quit ruminating on the past?
I keep thinking about the awful things I've done in the past. I also almost died twice as a result of getting black out drunk and taking my prescription Vicodin (I don't take that now that I'm sober). I woke up (not sure how) one morning had taken 11 pills next to 2 bottles of wine. I am a mother of two beautiful girls. How the hell could I have done that. So selfish. So awful. I never intended on taking the pills until I was drunk and then chased the buzz. I hate myself for that. There are so many humiliating things I've done while drunk but this I cannot let go of. I look at my two little girls and just cannot forgive myself. How can I move past this? Any tips or stories of rumination. It's haunting.