Originally Posted by
AlericB 
Hi BeHappy,
I was wondering what was going through your mind when you picked up again. Whatever your thoughts were, did you recognise them as AV at the time?
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I knew it was. My AV. I started drinking last Wednesday and it was pretty much a bender until last night. I missed events that my kids were in. This is really making me see just how PURELY SELFISH the AV is. I lost sight of the fact that I DON"T DRINK anymore. When I drink it is always at home. Never socially. It was too easy to "check out" last week and I am disgusted with myself. I went back through and re-read this thread. I have been pretty much confined to bed and water today. I can't keep food down. I deserve to feel this bad.
