You can do this. Will power may not be enough but it has to be a significant effort on your part. So every day for over a year has been the same...waking up feeling compelled not to drink, but ending up giving in and feeling disappointed in your self. Tomorrow morning you can wake up feeling proud. How great would that feel? you may not feel well physically or mentally, but you will have that feeling of accomplishment to hold on to.
Every one has great advice and here's mine for what it's worth.
If your drinking is out of such a routine as it sounds like it is, are there any non alcoholic beverages you like to replace your wine with? Sparking apple juice or something yummy? I'm a beer girl so I just changed up my beer for diet sodas at first..not super healthy but better than drinking alcohol. Now I mostly drink herbal teas but if I feel like I'm missing my times of just sitting drinking beer I get diet mountain dew and feel like I'm being bad lol... all the best...you can do this.