Awwwww..........
Just sending you some soft cyber hugs.
And I am encouraging you to take care of yourself and your children.
Children REALLY suffer when they live in a household with an alcoholic and/or addict. Even a "pleasant/nice" one.
I am encouraging you to get educated about alcoholism and addiction. (I have many alcoholics in my family and an adult son who is addicted to marijuana). (You can search for my post about him).
If possible, try out some Alanon meetings. The meetings are for and about you. Your life, your health and your children .
Also- know that this website is fabulous! Good info, good support, lots of wisdom. (Come often, listen (read), post your thoughts and questions, and learn).
TRUTH:
Alcoholism/Addiction IS Progressive. It WILL get worse.
(Unless the A gets into recovery).
My alcoholic dad was the nicest guy in the world - until the disease started taking over - (progressed).
He tried but could not sustain sobriety. And then......he and life with him and his ultimate death were not pleasant - at all!
How I hope your husband can or will get clean and sober!! In the meantime,I hope you will be taking care of yourself and your children.
Good luck - and I am sending more hugs.