One Month Sober.
Tomorrow marks day number 30 of sobriety for me. I made it almost 3 months back in 2015 so I am not celebrating too much but it is still an important milestone. Back in 2015 I wasn't sure if I really wanted to quit. I saw it as more of a hiatus I was undertaking because of some personal issues where alcohol had negatively affected a couple of specific aspects of my life. This time I see it as a lifetime commitment because I realize that it has negatively affected EVERY area of my life. I really did know that then and have known it for years, I just did not want to go through with the trials and tribulations that go hand in hand with sobriety.
This is something I always knew that I was going to have to do eventually; it was just a matter of when. It feels weird that I'm actually going through with it. Before it always seemed like something in the distance that I would try to take care of someday. It almost seemed like sobriety for me wasn't a real thing. It was a "maybe" for some other time.
At this point I still have some pretty strong cravings. It's especially bad when I'm bored. I never actually get tempted to run down to the store and buy alcohol, however. It's kind of hard to explain. Physically I want to, but mentally I understand that there is no possible way that alcohol will provide the same level of enjoyment it once did. I feel very strongly about this commitment.
I ordered a series of yoga DVD's called DDP Yoga which also includes a nutrition guide to help me eat healthier (I was glad to read in the guide that it's highly recomended to avoid alcohol completely). I'm hoping that this will help me feel as though I have made a complete lifestyle change for the better.