Originally Posted by
venuscat 
"And in the end, the love you take
Is equal to the love you make...."
No matter what other people thought I should do, I am the only one who knows the truth of all of this, from beginning to end.
Two recovering alcoholics, two very damaged people who pledged to love and made some awful mistakes.
The choice is whether to move forward from there in faith and love.
That was not an easy choice, but it is the choice I have made.
We both have....now we move forward. One day at a time.
I am a very damaged person who makes horrible choices very day.
I do not make bad choices because I do not love... I do not make bad choices because I don't care..... but I still make them. Over and Over.
Let me be very clear... The reason it's been so hard for Suze in America is because of me and my choices.
She has put in EVERY effort to make this work. She works hard every day. And I constantly mess up and throw her life into chaos.
The one choice I consistently and correctly make is love. I choose love every single time. And I always will.
And I choose now to be a better person, to make better choices, to make her life easier here. I am SO far from what I want to be. I am SO far from how I want to treat Suze.
But I will *NEVER* stop trying to change, improve, and be a better person.