As a mother who is not the alcoholic who has children who have choosen to disown me since I divorced exah, I'd never leave a note like that in case they found it. I feel like their lives were blighted enough without carrying a whole load of guilt after my death over how they reacted to me and how they threw me away. It's hurtful but I keep it to myself. I am very sorry for your loss and glad you could be close before she passed (((hugs))