It's been awhile
Sad to say that I'm back but frankly I never left. You never leave this - never move away from what your life becomes. In last year she has been arrested three times and is in jail now as I type. So many dead days - wishing hoping praying crying. I refused her calls from jail because it's always the same - sorry but send money. It's been 12 years of this - no positive changes just a bunch of zombies running around at my house all freaked out by her waiting for 'that call' - the call that is right around the corner. I just am so burned out and tired and sick of it all. My life fog has just got to lift - I do try - but it's just so damn hard. Some days I look around and don't know me or where I am or what has become of our lives and family. I just pray it will change but it never does. Now I know it never does - it's here to stay.