Hi Ladyblue, I'm so sorry about your cat. Our pets are our best friends and it's so heartbreaking when they pass. I can't even think about the day I lose my dog, she's getting on in years and I tear up just thinking about it. Hard as it is to feel the grief I'm glad you are sober while you go through this. I lost a cat years ago and I cried for a week, he was such a little character and there was such an absence in my home without him. Pets give us such authentic and unconditional love, it's a shame they don't live as long as we do so we can have our whole lives together. Take care of yourself xx