Welcome 161261,
Sounds like you know how to get sober. So do it. Then work on your sobriety.
If you want to be recovered you have to surrender to the fact that booze can't be in your body.
Then you have to get spiritually fit. Basically, you have to come to terms with who you are as a person and love yourself. It takes time sober and a lot of work. And when you do it, you will have a wonderful fulfilled life.
Good luck and many prayers.