I'm here too 2much and I'm following.
We have your back. Hang here tomorrow, lean on us as much as you need to. You don't have to be in this cycle anymore.
You are having all this ideas about the future like what will happen if you go imto AA or that you have to be sober x amount of time before you can sign up. Don't think future, think now. AA isn't the only way, but do commit to building a plan. What are you going to do now to not drink.
We are here. Rely on us.