Update on life
I finally worked out that my ex was just using me for money this time. I got an interest free loan and cleared out all my debts.He was painting the house inside and kept trying to drag it out to get more money. I told him I have to keep on top of my debts from now on. We had a big fight. He is now not talking to me. I couldn't cope with being treated like a piece of scum anymore. It's been four days now and I picked up drinking again. I couldn't cope with the pain of being so stupid. After today I can't afford to drink. Scared of bad withdrawals. Was up all night terrified of being alone. In a really bad place.