Thanks for the thread Sao. I use to use the word 'Survive' allot in my train of thinking. IE needing alcohol to 'survive' until the next day. One of my evening routines was count my cans of beer then in my head would be the thought 'Good, I have enough to survive thru tomorrow'. I think that was my biggest hurdle, to learn that I can survive without alcohol. I took me awhile but I've learned that thriving in sobriety is so much better than merely surviving in alcoholism.