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Old 09-17-2005, 10:55 AM
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equus
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Lightbulb Well would ya Adam and Eve it?!!

I actually feel more confident and secure after D's slip while I was away!!

I had wondered if he would take out the plan we made and follow it - now I know, he did. I had wondered whether I could behave in the way I believe in - I didn't manage that perfectly but I got nearer to where I want to be than I have before. I had wondered if I could keep my sense of hope and I've found it has increased. I had wondered if it would make the changes seem less real but the sight of those changes surviving a slip, even becoming deeper seated through it has answered that question.

I learned something - about me, him, and us. I learned peace is a verb just the same as love. We don't have to wait for it and hope, I can decide on it like deciding to do anything, go for a run, drink some coffee, love, make a bacon butty, wear my favourite jeans, live peacefully, stroke the dog. They're just decisions. I also learned that removing anger and replacing it with compassion is HOW I live peacefully - just as putting fried bacon between 2 slices of bread is HOW I make a bacon butty!
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