Thoughts
I was able to make it to day 11 twice recently.. there is no real significance to the number 11, I think it is just enough time for me to forget how bad drinking was.
I'm on day 3 .. But am stressed am feel like drinking after work. I know it wouldn't make sense .. tomorrow would be more stressful as a result of feeling like crap and if some major crisis happened while drinking...
Drinking is ridiculous and I can make myself believe that yet end up with beer.
I need coping skills for stress. Today I'm worried about my job, my car, my apartment, even my looks. I have a poor self image and often use that as an excuse to say to heck with it and drink again.
I have to put in the work to get these much needed life skills because they haven't fallen out the sky yet.. probably time to go get them myself.
Thanks for reading.