Hi Lilia!! Welcome to SR. I am not sure what advice I can give, only that you have to do what is best for you. But it sounds like you have a great head on your shoulders, and are being cautious and protective of yourself as well.
One of the moderators might be able to move this over to the Friends and Family section, so that others might be able to assist as well? Awesome group over there too. Check it out, read around, and post as MUCH as you would like. Again, great to have you here.